Saturday, April 29, 2006
i feel lyk SHIT.
i cnt stop crying.
how cud i be such a BITCH.
i feel lyk dying. - hate myself -
haixxx.
i shud haf known. CT was rite. shudnt be too generous to help. :(
i mean sigh..
i so very much want to see ALL my frens hepi. well tt's my weakness. i rather see pple hepi thn be hepi. i once even willingly give up my rank to sumone koled A FRIEND. i jux feel better if i see evrione hepi. thn i'll be hepi. i HATE to see my frens sad. jux hate it. i'll feel sry fr em. TT'S WHY I HELPED EU. AND WHART DO I GET IN TH END? DUPED!
I MISS BAND!
LIVE WUDNT SUCK IF THERE'S BAND PRACTICES.
:( i really miss th old tyms. FYI. eu noe abt me trasfering to westwood? well, its a LIE. i lied so tt i cn push eu to speak up to her. cux i noe eu WAN her real bad. tts why i lied so tt eu'll go tok to her. why do eu tink i keep saying " must stead with her bfr i leave okay? its my last wish. i really wan to see bth of eu tgether. "
but one thg is fr sure. i NEVER regreted helping eu. but whart i realli regret is to lose such a gud brader lyk eu. :( oh gosh. why do i get emotional easily? i need tissue! ) dont eu see it. even BFR eu guys stead.. she's alrdy jealous & kept koling eu a flirt. DONT EU SEE IT? imagine if eu guys went steady.. i guess i cnnt even TALK to eu. :( tt is whart i am really upset. its not yr fault. its not her fault. its my fault. maybe i value frenship too much tt its hard to let go. haixxx. if onli im still in 2C1. thn i wudnt have met eu & we wudnt be frens & i wudnt feel so shitty right nw.
pls. dun apologise to me animore. eu'll make me cry again lyk whart eu did jux nw. lyk i said i VALUE frenship TOO much tt its hard to let go. i am really really gg to miss crapping with eu. i am really really gg to miss bullying eu. i am really really gg to miss MY BRADER.
lastly. im sry fr upsetting eu. im still regreting it RIGHT NOW. im 'sry fr making thgs diff fr eu. i wish eu th best & dun wry. theres nothing NOT to lyk abt eu. she will see it one day.
CONCENTRATE ON YR MID-YEAR OKAY? MUST JIAYOU! :)
i cnt stop crying.
how cud i be such a BITCH.
i feel lyk dying. - hate myself -
haixxx.
i shud haf known. CT was rite. shudnt be too generous to help. :(
i mean sigh..
i so very much want to see ALL my frens hepi. well tt's my weakness. i rather see pple hepi thn be hepi. i once even willingly give up my rank to sumone koled A FRIEND. i jux feel better if i see evrione hepi. thn i'll be hepi. i HATE to see my frens sad. jux hate it. i'll feel sry fr em. TT'S WHY I HELPED EU. AND WHART DO I GET IN TH END? DUPED!
I MISS BAND!
LIVE WUDNT SUCK IF THERE'S BAND PRACTICES.
:( i really miss th old tyms. FYI. eu noe abt me trasfering to westwood? well, its a LIE. i lied so tt i cn push eu to speak up to her. cux i noe eu WAN her real bad. tts why i lied so tt eu'll go tok to her. why do eu tink i keep saying " must stead with her bfr i leave okay? its my last wish. i really wan to see bth of eu tgether. "
but one thg is fr sure. i NEVER regreted helping eu. but whart i realli regret is to lose such a gud brader lyk eu. :( oh gosh. why do i get emotional easily? i need tissue! ) dont eu see it. even BFR eu guys stead.. she's alrdy jealous & kept koling eu a flirt. DONT EU SEE IT? imagine if eu guys went steady.. i guess i cnnt even TALK to eu. :( tt is whart i am really upset. its not yr fault. its not her fault. its my fault. maybe i value frenship too much tt its hard to let go. haixxx. if onli im still in 2C1. thn i wudnt have met eu & we wudnt be frens & i wudnt feel so shitty right nw.
pls. dun apologise to me animore. eu'll make me cry again lyk whart eu did jux nw. lyk i said i VALUE frenship TOO much tt its hard to let go. i am really really gg to miss crapping with eu. i am really really gg to miss bullying eu. i am really really gg to miss MY BRADER.
lastly. im sry fr upsetting eu. im still regreting it RIGHT NOW. im 'sry fr making thgs diff fr eu. i wish eu th best & dun wry. theres nothing NOT to lyk abt eu. she will see it one day.
CONCENTRATE ON YR MID-YEAR OKAY? MUST JIAYOU! :)
GDGDBABYBABY ❤, Saturday, April 29, 2006.
